Walk in Water

A big part of having fibromyalgia is self care and self management. One thing I do to try and manage my symptoms is go walking through the swimming pool.

I had a limp when I walked for months. Somebody suggested to me that I should go swimming as it’s good for the joints. The problem is, I cannot swim. It’s something I always wanted to do but I have never been able to accomplish (it’s a work in progress). When I was younger I was nearly swimming but I got pulled under the water as a joke and I’ve pretty much had a fear about being in the pool since. It was then suggested to me that I should go to the pool but just go walking through it.

Now, due to the aforementioned fear, even the very thought of going to the swimming pool induced a lot of anxiety. One day I decided to go down and I walked through the pool. My biggest surprise that day was that I survived it. I could not walk very long through the pool. The fatigue hit me fast but I could get myself to the pool and out again without drowning! Since that day, I have continued going to the swimming pool at least once a week.

The water in the pool takes stress off of joints and makes it easier to walk. As well as this, the water also provides some resistance which helps make your muscles work. Water exercises are classed as low impact exercise. The movements you do in the pool does not have the same impact on the body as there would be doing it on land.

Some benefits of walking through the water include:

  • Muscle strength being improved.
  • Improved posture and balance
  • Greater movement and flexibility of joints
  • Improving general fitness levels
  • Eases stiff joints and sore muscles
  • Enhanced sense of wellbeing, better moods and hopefully better sleep.
  • Reduced pain and tiredness.

My progress is slow, very slow, but I am working on it. Like I have already mentioned, I believe it is walking through the pool that has improved my walking, however slight it may be. I have also been very lucky that I have had friends accompany me and walk through the pool with me, being my own personal cheerleaders and motivators. I still have a lot of anxiety regarding going to the pool but I am trying my best and that is all somebody can really do.

Walking through the pool is just one of the many things I have tried to self manage my fibromyalgia symptoms, just one of the activities that I am attempting in my journey of feeling through life.

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“What are your hobbies? What do you enjoy doing?”

“What are your hobbies? What do you enjoy to do?” These are questions that I have been asked a lot recently. Usually by a medical professional, scribbling down some notes or filling in some sort of medical assessment. I find it a really difficult question to answer. The answer is I don’t know. I really don’t remember. From experience, I can tell you people tend to look at you strangely if you give this answer, to what they deem simple questions.

For years now I have felt like I don’t know myself anymore. Truthfully, I don’t know if I have ever properly known myself. I guess as a twenty-something year old, it is now that I begin to know myself better. There are things that I used to like doing. There are things that I used to do. I just don’t really remember, or know, what they are. It is not just my diagnosis that has made me forget what I like doing, or hobbies. I don’t remember having hobbies for a long time now. I had exams at school then I went straight to university. While I attended university I worked. After I graduated I worked extra hours, or cared for my nana or had some appointment trying to find out my diagnosis. Then when I got injured, I found myself in so much pain, and so much less mobility I now cannot do activities and tasks at all.

I am now faced with a lot of spare time, as I am currently unfit for work. I don’t know what to do with my time. The most difficult version I was asked these questions, was when I was trying to set goals with the pain management physiotherapist. This was more difficult as the questions had an extra element to them. The physio wanted to know what I liked to do that we can set goals to build up to. I do not know what I want to build up to. I don’t know what I liked to do, I did not really have ‘me time’ to do things. Now I have too much time and I don’t know what I like doing, as well as not knowing what my body will do without screaming at me.

One thing I do know I like is spending time with friends! So this weekend, Hazel and I went to Comic Con. To be able to go, I made sure I had painkillers with me and I wore heat pads to try and dull down some of the pain. I have never attended Comic Con before. I have a bit of a fear of people dressed up. Well, if I can see the person’s face I am OK…. Unless that face is painted as a clown! Then I am ALWAYS afraid! I had a lot of worries when Hazel asked me if I wanted to go with her. However, I had a great time. There was so much things to see, that I didn’t know what to look at first.

Now, I am not saying that going to Comic Con is a ‘hobby’ I have. I did enjoy myself that day though, and it is something that I would attend again! Trying new things can be a great time. Exploring new activities means that you might find something you enjoy doing, or find new hobbies. Even if you know how you like to spend your time, finding new activities contribute to your growth and development.

Right now, I am telling myself that it is ok that I do not know what I like to do. It means that I can, hopefully, have fun as I explore options and find out, while getting to know myself. I am still fairly young, it is ok not to know myself completely. Everybody is just trying to feel their way through life anyway – I am no different.

Lady Gaga announced she has fibromyalgia…

Lady Gaga has a documentary coming out on Netflix this month which features her battle with chronic illness. This week she announced that she has fibromyalgia.

When I hear of anybody with fibromyalgia, I feel for them. As somebody who experiences the pain and hardships on a daily basis I can empathise how bad their battles may be. Fibromyalgia can affect everybody differently, and can affect your life differently from a day to day basis. This makes it hard to treat, hard to manage.

I am interested in watching the documentary being released later this month. I think it will be interesting to see how fibromyalgia is portrayed on the film. I recently watched a television programme that had fibromyalgia featured and I do not think it was featured well. It started off well but did not show the multiple battles, or different treatment types that may work. It made treatment seem like a “one size fits all” idea, and that is definitely not the case. It would be great if there was a treatment out there that would definitely work for everybody however that is not the case.

Lady Gaga works hard for her performances. She does a lot of singing and dancing. I worry that people will see that she has fibromyalgia and still performs so could potentially alienate people who suffer from it. I know for a fact that there is no way that I could put on a show like Lady Gaga! I can’t even go shopping for twenty minutes without crying. I can’t even shower without having a lie down afterwards. Already, I get told things like ‘[insert name here] has fibromyalgia and they can [insert activity here].’ I can already hear Lady Gaga being used as a potential example – “Lady Gaga has fibromyalgia and she can still work/perform.” It can be hard for people to see how debilitating fibromyalgia can be, especially when it is an invisible illness. Also, Lady Gaga will have access to different, and potentially more, treatments to try.

That being said, a famous person speaking out about fibromyalgia will definitely spread awareness. Her announcement has started so many conversations and that is very important. It has put fibromyalgia in the spotlight and shared information about it to people who may not have heard of it. For some people, it has brought about hope. It is a reminder that they are not alone in their battles.

Fibromyalgia does not discriminate, it affects people from all walks of life.

(The End of) Fibromyalgia Awareness Week 2017

Today marks the ends of Fibromyalgia Awareness Week 2017. It’s been a fairly difficult week symptom wise for me but I like to think that I may have spread some awareness, even if it was just the guy from the local shop across the road since I spoke to him a wee bit more coherently than some of the conversations I have had. I like to think, even if the brain fog was bad people were able to see the effects that it can have on daily life. Even though it is the end of Fibromyalgia Awareness Week that does not mean that spreading awareness should just stop. Keep that conversation going! 

Continuing on from last post, here is the points from the 7th – the 10th….

Something that helps you manage fibromyalgia

Truthfully I have not found anything that fully helps me manage my fibromyalgia. There are a few different things that I do to try and help myself. I am still in my first year of being officially diagnosed. I am just newly on my journey. There are many products and ideas out there for me to try… The thing with fibromyalgia is what works for one person may not work for another… and the only way that you are going to know if something works for you is giving it a go!

  • Yoga/Pilates class – This class was suggested to me as it is gentle and the teacher gives you options and can adapt moves for you. This is a weekly class and my cousin Emma, comes with me to it. Part of the class is relaxation. I am just doing what I can do, which is not a lot at this moment in time. In fact, quite a lot of it is me just lying down listening to the music, just breathing.
  • Walking through the swimming pool – I can not swim, and going to the pool increases my anxiety. However, I do believe that walking through the pool has been helping me. I got injured in work in February and since then I have had a bad limp. Since I have started walking through the pool, the limp comes and goes… I know this does not seem like much but I was constantly limping for three whole months! Now I just limp most of the time. I am taking victories where I can and this is definitely one! I can only walk through the pool for 10-15 minutes before the fatigue becomes too much, and I need to leave the pool so that I have some energy for the showers, getting dressed and getting home but I am trying. The pain physio nurse has also given me some exercises to do in the pool too. The exercises themselves are quite gentle and simple but they make me so very tired… and I can not do many of the movements. But I am working on it!
  • BloggingFeeling Through Life. I started this blog to sort some of my thoughts, to share my experiences and to hopefully spread some awareness. There is something therapeutic in writing this, so thank you to anybody reading this. Plus in typing everything out here I tend to moan less at my family, which can only be a good thing!
  • Colouring in – adult colouring in books are a bit of a trend at the moment and has been for the last wee while. I have always loved colouring in, I even coloured in before the adult colouring in books became a ‘thing’. I find that it calms me down and keeps me busy. The only problem now is quite often I get a bit ‘wobbly’ (I shake) and I tend to go out the lines sometimes which I really hate but it has not put me off colouring in. I think it is good for creativity, it is good for seeing details, good for distracting!
  • Reading or watching movies, TV shows etc – watching movies or TV programmes or reading is a good way to get lost in a different world. It is great escaping from this reality into a different world, a different time or different situations.
  • Heat – I use hot water bottles and heat pads a lot! It’s a bit of a hard one really though, sometimes heat helps and other times I feel hot water bottles and heat pads are too warm and feel like they are burning me. I like cosy socks and blankets. I like to wrap a duvvet around me. I like to cocoon and form that protective layer around me. Maybe I am living in the hope that one day I will metamorphosize in my cocoon and emerge a beautiful butterfly?
  • Write things down and tell my sister – I write a lot of information down in the hope that it will sink in and I will remember it. I have notes everywhere. I tend to type them down in my phone too. A problem I have from time to time is I forget what the note means, which is not ideal. This is why I tend to tell Kaitlyn, in the hope that she might remember.
  • Listening to my body – I try and listen to what my body is telling me. Not going to lie about it, I am not very good at it sometimes. I have a tendency to push myself too much and suffer for it. It is a thing I am hoping, that as my journey progresses, I may become better at. I think this may be key to managing my fibromyalgia.

These are just a few examples of the things that I do to manage my fibromyalgia. This is by no means the only things that I try and there will be many different things out there for me to try and manage my fibromyalgia but the above is just a few that I have seen helping me manage symptoms at the moment. If anybody has any suggestions then please do send them my way.

I also have medication prescribed to me from the doctor to try and help me manage my fibromyalgia. I am still going through the process of seeing what medication works for me.

Something that you know now that you wish you had known at diagnosis

At diagnosis I wish I knew that there was different options of treatment and it was a trial and error method in finding what works for you. When I was diagnosed, I felt I was given a diagnosis, got a wee booklet about fibromyalgia and sent away to deal with it. I hardly knew a thing about it. It is a condition that needs a lot more research. Everything is quite vague, guidelines have phrases like, “In some cases, exercise is found to improve fibromyalgia symptoms…. Some find that exercise exacerbates symptoms.”

I also wish that I knew that fibromyalgia is more common than I thought.

Most of all, and I guess this feeling started before diagnosis, I wish I knew how much this diagnosis affects life. It affects every aspect of life.

Something that you are proud of

I am quite proud of this blog. I have had some messages and comments about it that give me a warm, fuzzy kind of feeling. They make me feel like I am still able to do something. I am able to complete a task. On a daily basis, there are so many tasks that I cannot do or cannot complete. This blog is keeping my mind going. It is keeping me thinking. It has me setting myself deadlines and goals and achieving them. My goal is to post every Sunday, there has only been one Sunday I did not post but I posted on the Monday instead. This week, I have even posted twice! Achievement!

Something you are grateful for

I am grateful for my friends and family! I am so lucky to have such good people in my life and be surrounded by such love. They inspire me to try and become a better person. They remind me that I am not alone, I am loved and I am wanted. They encourage me to keep on trying – through my health journey but also through life in general. I am so blessed that I have people who believe in me and love me.

Fibromyalgia Awareness Week 2017

Fibromyalgia Action UK (FMA UK) has set this ‘photo challenge’ for Fibromyalgia Awareness Week 2017. I am really bad for seeing a social media challenge and adding my own spin to it. I think deep down I think I’m a rebel! So in this fashion, I have decided to do a blog post instead of photos. What I have decided to do is take each day as a topic. Today, I will cover the points from the 3rd – 6th and on Sunday (my normal posting day) I will cover the points from the 7th – 10th.

Your diagnosis

I was formally diagnosed after a long time, after a very long time, on 23rd December 2016. I remember this date very well because I was in a bad mood having to go to the hospital so close to Christmas. My cousin, Donald, came with me to the appointment and waited for me in the waiting room. I was so nervous. I hate going to the hospital. I was so worried about what was going to be said, what was going to happen. My GP had said that he thought I had fibromyalgia so was going to refer me to a rheumatologist. So the consultant officially diagnosed me with fibromyalgia. I had very mixed feelings that day about my diagnosis. Truthfully, I continue to have very mixed feelings about my diagnosis. I was relieved that I finally had a ‘label’ for what was going on with me. It felt like I had been going to the GP to no avail for a million years. It took a lot of visits to the GP, a lot of blood tests, a lot of getting told “it was just stress”/ “it’s just anxiety”/ “it’s all in your head” (Disclaimer: No GP told me “it was all in my head”, it just felt that way), a bunch of increasing tablets, some counselling, a lot of tears, a lot of moaning and a change of GP to even feel that I was being taken seriously. I was worried about what this diagnosis meant for me and means for my life. I know there is no cure. I know it’s about “treating the symptoms” but what does that mean for my quality of life? Am I going to have a good working life? Am I going to be able to keep working? Is this going to continue to affect family and friendships? Am I going to have a social life? All important questions! All I really know is, I am on a journey, and I may not find all the answers out, but I just have to keep trying and keep going forward.

 

What it’s like to have an invisible illness

What’s it like to have an invisible illness? It’s a pain! No pun intended. You have so many changes and feelings, both emotionally and physically, going on within your body and nobody seems to acknowledge it. You get so tired that you can’t even shower without having to have a lie down and you just get labelled lazy. You have so much pain, that sometimes you can’t move. Sometimes you are physically sick with the amount of pain you are in or you burst into tears. Of course this goes on behind closed doors and people think you are being a “drama queen” and exaggerating. Since people can’t look at you and physically see something wrong with you, it is just assumed that you are “fine”.

 

What you’d like people to be more aware of

I would like people to be more aware of invisible illnesses in general, not just of fibromyalgia. It would be a lot easier if people just kept in mind that they do not know what is going on in a person’s life. That person may be struggling and just need some support, a little bit of kindness shown to them.

Also, I would like people to be aware that fibromyalgia affects everybody differently. It affects me totally different than how it affects ‘Julie’s sister’s boyfriend’s mum’s colleague!’ Seriously! The amount of times I have heard something like that is ridiculous. Asking something like “[insert name here] can do a, b and c…why can’t you?” is soul destroying. That person is only going to replay this question over and over again and beat themselves up over it! However, what can be helpful is saying what works for another person and suggesting it as something to potentially try or consider.

 

Your support network

I am lucky when it comes to my support network. I have lost friendships as a result of this condition and I may not be as close to some family members as I would like to but those I do have close to me are amazing!

Kaitlyn (my sister) for example, can do everything for me some days. I’m talking making sure I’m washed, dressed and have had my medication and something to eat. Not just saying “Sarah, get dressed”, but actually physically helping me put clothes on. She tries to arrange shifts at her work so that she is available to take me to appointments. She is my organiser, she reminds me of phone calls I need to make, things I have to do, appointments needing made, when to take my pills. Everything really. I am also particularly close to Donald and his fiance Laura. Donald lives around the corner from me and the amount of times I have just appeared at his door in tears is too many to count! He is very good at comforting me, while letting me get it all out. He makes a cup of tea, gives me a hug and listens to my worries, my pains, my feelings and reminds me that I’m going to be ok. Laura, always reminds me that I am not alone and that she is only a call, text, message away. In that respect I am very lucky. My friends, too, are always reminding me that I am not alone and are only a message away. My friends are amazing, they arrange things in such a way that I can participate in it. That might be them taking their car, and insist to pick me up and take me to the event and bring me back home. They stand at the back of gigs or find seats so that I can sit or at least have something to lean on. They have left gigs early with me. In fact, Hazel has left many gigs early with me because I have not been able to cope. Claire has stopped exploring Berlin with me when we were on holiday so that we could search for a pharmacy instead because I needed painkillers. My friends are there for my tears and they listen.

I am very lucky to have such an amazing support network. I really hope that they all know just how much I appreciate them and the things they do for me. I really hope they know that I love them and I am sorry that I share so much details with them, too much details in a lot of cases, but by doing so they have helped settle me in one form or another.

Filtered and Unfiltered Lives

This week I’ve been thinking about how people portray themselves to other people a lot. My thought process then going onto social media and how you can get a glimpse of a person’s life through it.

As a person with a condition that is largely invisible, I find it difficult to know how to act in situations. For example, do I ‘pretend that I am not is pain’ and then end up suffering for it later on or do I take things slow or do things in such a way that may be better for my pain and potentially be a ‘burden’ on my family, friends, colleagues, anybody really? It is made especially difficult with expectations of society’s. People look at me and see a young girl, so I must be fit and healthy. By looking at me, you wouldn’t necessarily think, at times, that there’s anything ‘wrong’ with me.

Through media sites such as Facebook and Instagram, this generation seems to be the ‘selfie’ generation. Like most people my age, my phone is full of selfies, most of which I do not post online. Another factor of selfies, or any picture posted, is that they are edited and so many filters are added to them. I think this can be such a good tool, but I also feel it can be damaging. I like to play with editing tools and filters as much as the next person. They are great! You can take a picture and make it black and white, make it look bright, make it look vintage – so many different options. I am all for the creativity that this can induce. You are taking something, and making it ‘better’. This is also encouraging self expression which is so important. Lines begin to be crossed however with the selfie. People can take this picture of themselves and through this medium of ‘self expression’ actually produce an edit of themselves that is the furthest thing from who they really are.

The thing with a selfie or photograph is they are mainly ‘staged’. I take pictures of everything. I take selfies to remember things, to make things a memory, because it is nice, to keep record of my symptoms, to keep record of my journey… everything. I like nothing better than an ‘action shot’, I feel it is more true to life. When picking what photograph to post online, you are choosing a part of your life that you want to show your friend list. This can be something that is true to your life, or can be constructed in such a way to make people think it is your life, or in a way you wish your life to be. All these options are fine. However, I think it is important to remember that everything you see, especially on social media, is not necessarily exactly what the situation is. Here is a picture of me, looking fairly good if I do say so myself.

 This is a picture that I would probably post online. I think it looks good. The thing is it is completely fake. I found an app that added filters to photos to try makeup styles and I was playing around with the different options. Then on top of that there is another filter. It has produced this nice photo though. This is the type of photo that it is ‘acceptable’ to post online. Looking at this photo, it looks like I have made an effort, it looks like I have a full face on and I am ready to face the day. Perhaps I could be going out to do something nice. The reality was so much different! Here is what was actually going on at the time.

 I was in a lot of pain. I could not move from my bed. I was so sore and frustrated with myself, and with my body, that I had cried. My hair hadn’t been washed in an unmentionable amount of time. The only thing different between the two photographs, other than the filters, was I managed to change position so that I could take a photo that I could use to play on the app with. This was a way for me to distract myself from the pain etc. The first picture would be a choice in what I want people to see. So this got me thinking why? Why is it more acceptable for me to post picture 1? It’s not true to the situation that I was in. It looks nothing like how I was actually looking at that moment in time. Social media, and how you make yourself up in the day, can be so deceiving. I have an invisible illness and here I am making it even more invisible. It is as though I am hiding it. Why? Surely on sites that is for self expression which, in my opinion, is exactly what sites like instagram is for, i should be able to post true pictures. I have fibromyalgia, it is part of me and is shaping/has shaped who I am. Why can I not post a picture showing my true situation?


I am not suddenly “cured” because I’ve posted a picture with makeup on, whether that is using a filter or not. Maybe I am trying to make myself feel better. Maybe I am trying to make an effort for my own self esteem and confidence. Maybe I am pushing myself a little to go through my day in a way that I would like that is not fully dictated my my body or my emotions. The amount of times I have heard, “but you don’t look ill” or  “you can’t tell there is anything wrong with you”. I feel like replying that’s good because “that’s the look I’m going for”. Likewise, not every day is going to be a day I can’t move from my bed. However, I just feel that it shouldn’t be an issue if I choose that as a photo to share. Whether it is my own head making that issue or not. It encourages stigma and discrimination


On the whole I can be quite open about my conditions and my struggles. Even through the pictures I post. However I am guilty for being more likely to post a photo that has a filter or posed in some way. Part of the reason I wanted to start blogging was to write about my experiences, my thoughts and my feelings to try and make sense of them myself,or to (hopefully) help another person in knowing that they are not a lone there are other people out there with similar struggles, or fighting their own demons. As a result, I think I have to be open about my own life, especially here… Otherwise, what is the point? I want my blog to be a  safe space to tell my story, and for others to share theirs if they choose to. I am just feeling my way through life, the same as everybody else. I do not want to be judged on how I am or how I look in photographs. Personally, I think it’s important to share more of the unfiltered life, especially when it comes to invisible illnesses and mental health awareness. It can help start a conversation, spread awareness and help with issues of discrimination and stigma. However, it is OK to post pictures with filters over them, it is OK to edit those selfies. Likewise, it is OK to keep that photo unedited and unfiltered. If it’s a selfie, it’s going to look good either way, because it is going to have your beautiful self in it. Just remember to be kind. People are, or are not, editing and filtering their photos for a reason. Be happy that a person is showing you part of who they are and their life, or how they want their life to be and be seen. You might only be getting a small glimpse, but somebody has specifically chosen that moment, to share. 

What can I eat?

I have always been somewhat of a fussy eater. My nana would work around it in sneaky ways. For example, I do not like onions. She would chop onion up so small and thin that I wouldn’t see it in mince or the stew she made. She would tell me that she made mince/stew especially for me, without any onions. As I grew older, I realised what she was doing, but I still ate the food that was “made with no onions”. To this day I can only have onions if they are so finely cut and hidden in my food.

I was always really fussy with meat. I would only eat it cooked in a certain way but did not like it if it was different. Looking back, I must have annoyed anybody who had to prepare food for me. About three years ago, I went to a festival and did not want to eat any of the meat options. I was worried that it would not be cooked properly and I would be ill. The idea of being ill in a tent, in the middle of a field with no toilet facilities other that portaloos (portable toilets) really scared me. It would be a horrible experience. In fact, since then, a friend has told me of an experience at a festival where they got food poisoning from eating pizza at a festival. They can confirm it is a horrible experience! So while I was at the festival I ate a vegetarian diet. This continued to a degree once I got home. I cut out all red meat and poultry. I did not see this as an issue, I didn’t miss the meat and I had been fussy with it anyway. However, I do like tuna and I like mackerel so I decided I would continue to eat fish. I did decide to eat it less often though. There’s a running joke amongst some of my friends that I am technically pescatarian (as I eat fish) but really I am just a bad vegetarian as I only eat tuna and occasionally mackerel.

As you can tell from above my diet is largely plant based. I do still eat tuna and mackerel. I think this is important as they will provide me with omega 3, which is good for the brain and joints. I still do not miss red meat or poultry. My family still continue to eat meat. I was content with my own diet choices.

When my back pain started (which was what started the investigation as to what was ‘wrong’ with me), I started to notice some irregularities with my digestive system. As time has went on, I’m noticing more. The pain and cramping that I get in my stomach, the bloating. I am often full of gas. It hurts. A doctor has told me that it is “just a bit of stress”. To be fair it could be due to stress, it could be down to my medication and the medication changes that are happening through the process of finding what works for me, it could be as a result of my anxiety or fibromyalgia or it could be something totally unrelated.

I have been keeping an eye on things lately, and I’m trying to see if there is any kind of pattern to the problems. This is difficult as I keep forgetting to write down some of the information. I have been thinking about different things – Should I be eating or avoiding certain foods and drinks as I have fibromyalgia? Could I be allergic to, or have an intolerance to, particular foods or drinks? Am I eating all the wrong things for my illness? Is there anything I can do through food and drink that could help my pain, my anxiety, my fatigue?

In my search for answers I have thought of a few things.

  1. The anti inflammatory diet. There is a lot of information online about certain foods and nutrients that are good for inflammation. The current understanding of fibromyalgia is that it does not cause inflammation to the joints. However, I had recurring blood tests that showed unmarked markers showing inflammation. Now that is not to say that it is my joints that are inflamed, it just means that there is some inflammation present in my body. It worries me sometimes that I don’t know why I have markers indicating inflammation but it could be down to so many reasons. Could eating an anti inflammatory diet help this? I guess it could.
  2. An elimination diet. An elimination diet takes a long time. It is when you take something out of your diet and later reintroduce it and note any reactions that you and your body has. I like this idea in theory. I do not think it will work for me at this point in time. I feel it will require more willpower and concentration than I can give to it.
  3. Go to a nutritionist. Another thing that could help is possibly going to a nutritionist. They will have the expertise and knowledge to hopefully make suggestions or a plan for me highlighting important nutrients and vitamins and the best food to eat to get them.
  4. Get a intolerance/allergy test. This one links to going to a nutritionist, although there are ways to get tested without having to go to a nutritionist. There are home tests that can be purchased and you send it to a lab for testing. I believe it is samples of your hair that you send away to the labs.
  5. Other testing. This scares me but it is another possibility. There might not be anything, or very little, that can be done differently regarding my diet. I may need to get further testing to get things ruled out or found.

I am going to do some more research into all the options above. I may even come up with more options to look into. I am definitely going to discuss it with my doctor too. Doing research and finding out options is good to do, but it is important to discuss them with doctors and get medical advice first! I do not know why I seem to be having more digestive problems than what I did but it is something I would like to try and help my body with. I have zero answers to any of the questions that I am constantly fretting over. However, I am on a journey. I am on a journey of getting to know my body better. Getting to know my symptoms better. Learning triggers and trigger points. Learning to listen to my body and find when it is OK to push it a wee bit and when to stop and rest. On top of that, learning more about fibromyalgia and anxiety and finding things that help. There are going to be a lot of times I’m sure I am going to be very frustrated when things don’t work but I still need to try. I need to try and find things that will help me have a good quality of life and to have, at least some, control over my symptoms.